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Well, here starts another day at work. I'm alone on shift again. Its somewhat inconviencing, but managable. Funny though, the bosses are usually more frustrated than I am when I'm stuck alone. I appreciate the concern, but I can handle it by myself. (Though the extra hand is always useful!)

Of course, I've found that whenever I do need help in life, I hardly ever admit it. Its this stupid thing where I don't want to rely on something that won't always be there for me. Sure, it gets me by in that sitch, but what about the next time? I don't know why I think like that, its not like I've ever been abandoned, so I have no reason to think I don't have people who will be there for me in my time of need. Just more evidence of my screwed-upness, I've never really been betrayed, yet I have trust issues. cliffv('What's up with that?!')

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So Here on Earth is on HBO right now. I always get frustrated at the point in the movie where Kelley finds out Sam has cancer and can't deal with it so he leaves for a couple of weeks! What an idiot! She's dying, and he wastes the time that they could be spending together?! That moron! Yes, I realize its just a movie, and one with a prosaic storyline. Some jerk meets a sweet, down-to-earth girl who changes him, but then he finds out she has cancer. He can't deal, so he turns back to his jerky ways, leaving her in the hopes that he can forget her, but he can't. So he goes back, and for some reason she accepts the jerk back even though he abandoned her and they spend the last few days/weeks/months of her life together. Hollywood has done the story a jillion times.

Of course, I'm a sucker for all that faux love crap that you see in movies and TV. And I mean faux because its just not realistic. Real life doesn't work out as perfectly, and people aren't that soulful and articulate and witty as you see on the screen. But it does give me a warm fuzzy nonetheless.