Listen all y'all, its sabotage!
Oct. 14th, 2003 06:21 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
geebsIts always curious to know what might have been. I mean, I still wouldn't change anything, because I think a lot of good things have happenned that I wouldn't want not to happen. Things are connected, and the choices we make can have drastic effects. I mean, I could say I want to do X instead of Y, but then I, J, and K aren't possible, and I liked experiencing I, J, and K!
But I'm a curious guy. It would be kinda neat to see what things could be like. I mean, "what if" eps of comics and TV shows have always fascinated me. Strangely, they're never happy though. Even if it starts off sounding better, there's always some reason why the true path was the better one in the long run.
But there's a lot of things to wonder. What if I had gotten into that CIA program? Maybe then my grades my first year here wouldn't have been so piss-poor since I would have had a financial incentive to have a high GPA. And maybe I'd be an analyst right now. Of course, then I wouldn't have had to retake that one class and I couldn't laugh with amusement at how that 24 year old teacher I had thought I was trying to get into her pants. Granted she had good reason to believe that, but the fact that I had her back to back quarters was a total coincednce! Though I suppose it did look fishy to her since I was taking the classes out of sequence. But I had to re-take that pre-req eventually. Ah, I remember that day, when she looked me straight in the eye and emphasized to me how married she was. I ended up only going to the TA sessions for the rest of that quarter!
But I digress.
What misadventures would I have had if I had coxswained for crew? How would things turn out if the cable had gone out just one week earlier. Or asked Rachel to prom instead? What if I hadn't run after getting out of that cal final?
Although those are all examples of didn't dos. What about all the dumb-ass things I've done? I can think of a few things I'd like to take back.
Or maybe things are just fated. Like no matter what you did, certain things would've still happened. I mean, if I hadn't had that thing with H from Il, would M still have met J? Then would certain living arrangements not have happened, and if so would the Ss still hook up, and did they set the example for other H and I don't know what letter to use because I don't remember his name to enter into a similar marriage?
But I'm a curious guy. It would be kinda neat to see what things could be like. I mean, "what if" eps of comics and TV shows have always fascinated me. Strangely, they're never happy though. Even if it starts off sounding better, there's always some reason why the true path was the better one in the long run.
But there's a lot of things to wonder. What if I had gotten into that CIA program? Maybe then my grades my first year here wouldn't have been so piss-poor since I would have had a financial incentive to have a high GPA. And maybe I'd be an analyst right now. Of course, then I wouldn't have had to retake that one class and I couldn't laugh with amusement at how that 24 year old teacher I had thought I was trying to get into her pants. Granted she had good reason to believe that, but the fact that I had her back to back quarters was a total coincednce! Though I suppose it did look fishy to her since I was taking the classes out of sequence. But I had to re-take that pre-req eventually. Ah, I remember that day, when she looked me straight in the eye and emphasized to me how married she was. I ended up only going to the TA sessions for the rest of that quarter!
But I digress.
What misadventures would I have had if I had coxswained for crew? How would things turn out if the cable had gone out just one week earlier. Or asked Rachel to prom instead? What if I hadn't run after getting out of that cal final?
Although those are all examples of didn't dos. What about all the dumb-ass things I've done? I can think of a few things I'd like to take back.
Or maybe things are just fated. Like no matter what you did, certain things would've still happened. I mean, if I hadn't had that thing with H from Il, would M still have met J? Then would certain living arrangements not have happened, and if so would the Ss still hook up, and did they set the example for other H and I don't know what letter to use because I don't remember his name to enter into a similar marriage?
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what ifs
Date: 2003-10-14 05:12 pm (UTC)But just to tease you a bit ... what if you never moved down to Georgia?
Re: what ifs
Date: 2003-10-14 10:16 pm (UTC)But yeah, I think moving down here was one of the best things I've done. I mean, I care about the family a whole lot, but I think I needed the freedom, so I could make choices without worrying what everyone else wanted me to do.