Listen all y'all, its sabotage!

[geebs]

Its always curious to know what might have been. I mean, I still wouldn't change anything, because I think a lot of good things have happenned that I wouldn't want not to happen. Things are connected, and the choices we make can have drastic effects. I mean, I could say I want to do X instead of Y, but then I, J, and K aren't possible, and I liked experiencing I, J, and K!

But I'm a curious guy. It would be kinda neat to see what things could be like. I mean, "what if" eps of comics and TV shows have always fascinated me. Strangely, they're never happy though. Even if it starts off sounding better, there's always some reason why the true path was the better one in the long run.

But there's a lot of things to wonder. What if I had gotten into that CIA program? Maybe then my grades my first year here wouldn't have been so piss-poor since I would have had a financial incentive to have a high GPA. And maybe I'd be an analyst right now. Of course, then I wouldn't have had to retake that one class and I couldn't laugh with amusement at how that 24 year old teacher I had thought I was trying to get into her pants. Granted she had good reason to believe that, but the fact that I had her back to back quarters was a total coincednce! Though I suppose it did look fishy to her since I was taking the classes out of sequence. But I had to re-take that pre-req eventually. Ah, I remember that day, when she looked me straight in the eye and emphasized to me how married she was. I ended up only going to the TA sessions for the rest of that quarter!

But I digress.



What misadventures would I have had if I had coxswained for crew? How would things turn out if the cable had gone out just one week earlier. Or asked Rachel to prom instead? What if I hadn't run after getting out of that cal final?



Although those are all examples of didn't dos. What about all the dumb-ass things I've done? I can think of a few things I'd like to take back.

Or maybe things are just fated. Like no matter what you did, certain things would've still happened. I mean, if I hadn't had that thing with H from Il, would M still have met J? Then would certain living arrangements not have happened, and if so would the Ss still hook up, and did they set the example for other H and I don't know what letter to use because I don't remember his name to enter into a similar marriage?

Comments

[psyched-out.livejournal.com]

i think about that kind of stuff all the time--just think of collier ridge--the plan was originally going to be you and me living together, with k. & hewhocannotbenamed in the other apt--and just as we went to sign the papers, j. said he wanted to be included too, which made us shift to the 3-man--if that hadn't happened, how would our lives had shifted? do i owe my marriage to him???

even though i wanted to be freshman experience, tech had assigned me to be in one of the west campus dorms (can't remember which one now--hefner?)--i asked to be reconsidered, and they eventually came up with glenn--how would my tech experience (and life) been different had we not followed through?

what if i had never written that fan letter to half baked records?

what if i had taken that job offer with ups in seattle?

what if i had gotten over my nerve and worked at wrek from the beginning?

yeah, i can think of this stuff all day...

[geebs.livejournal.com]

Actually, I forgot how much happenned due to the Amy connection. Did she influence you to go to tech? I can't remember if you knew her before or after you decided where you were gonna go.

And if you worked at Tech from the very beginning, you might have become one of those "trendy" music people who thinks they're so great! Ha!

[psyched-out.livejournal.com]

she didn't influence me to go, but as you know she pretty much shaped up my first year at tech (aside from you guys) and was a major factor in me becoming who i became--not to mention my friends and connections and such i made through her...

And if you worked at Tech from the very beginning, you might have become one of those "trendy" music people who thinks they're so great! Ha!

wow, thank goodness that never happened!

Hello!

[saltygoodness.livejournal.com]

Hi...can't remember how I found your lj now...probably through the friends list of a friend of a friend...I don't know:-) But hi!! I added you because you seem interesting and you like Buffy, so you can do no evil (or maybe a little evil, but it's acceptable evil)

Re: Hello!

[geebs.livejournal.com]

nice to meet you! Its always good to meet new people on LJ! I've added you back, as well.

what ifs

[7500centfish.livejournal.com]

What ifs are always so dangerous to play with. I usually end up going to an steep spiral downwards bashing myself for everything I did wrong. But then I come to the realization, that I'm in a pretty good place in my life right now. It may not be exactly where I want to be with the rest of my life, but its life. There is always a new road to explore. But looking back and wondering if you made the write choice just halts you. It never lets you move on, for good or for bad; you won't be living life. So move on folks, there's nothing to see here.

But just to tease you a bit ... what if you never moved down to Georgia?

Re: what ifs

[geebs.livejournal.com]

Oh, I just think its interesting to speculate on how things might have turned out, just out of curiosity. I wouldn't change things though, because I wouldn't want to miss out on the good things I've had for something that might be better.

But yeah, I think moving down here was one of the best things I've done. I mean, I care about the family a whole lot, but I think I needed the freedom, so I could make choices without worrying what everyone else wanted me to do.