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geebsWho writes a book about their life and uses the real names of people?! Whenever I'm writing anecdotes about my life, I use the aliases I have for everyone I know. Like here's one: I've done a fair share of stupid things in high school, but Becca is by far my biggest regret. I'm a pretty shy guy, but for the most part, if I really like a girl, I'll go for it. I mean, there was the time I made a play for Thomas' long time friend Kelli (ha, like the IDs of these two aren't obvious! Well, to those who know of them), even though it coulda caused problems for them, which was kinda a prick move on my part. But I would've regretted it my whole life I didn't try, even though I knew it prolly wasn't gonna work out the way I hoped. But at least I know for sure now. But that was college.
High school, it was amusing how I had no problem playing cupid for other people but if I had been doing the things I did for them for myself, I woulda been a nervous wreck. Like sneaking messages or gifts to girls they liked. I remember getting to History class early to sneak a plush bear and stupid poem Doc wrote for this girl Jeane. I played it cool when she asked if I saw who put it on her desk. Heh, the guy who sat in front of her also had a kinda thing for her, and was also trying to get it out of me. I think they still both suspected it was me, because he was giving me angry looks and she was looking at me smilingly the rest of class. Well, in my direction. She might've thought it was some other guy in the same line of sight. But I digress, since it wasn't actually me who had the crush on her, its no skin off my back if she figured out I was the one who slipped the stuff onto her seat, so I would be less nervous about the whole situation anyways.
But even when it was me, I still went for it. I really did ask Sara out. And Michelle (my biggest high school crush whom I sometimes refer to on here as actress girl), she figured out my long time crush on her when I accidentally ended up staring at her moonily (lame!) during Channel One and she caught me. That was near Valentine's Day, so I thought, might as well really let her now how I feel, so I sent her one of those flowergrams. The school sent them out during homeroom, and we had class together right after that and I figured I'd say something to her then after she got the flowers. But when she showed up, she was sans flowers, and we didn't talk for like a couple of weeks. I mean, we eventually talked again, but we both kinda pretended my crush on her didn't exist.
Yet, when confronted with a cute girl who I'm 95% sure liked me, I clammed up. Becca was that girl. I first met her freshman year English. I sat all the way in the back, she all the way in the front, but every day she'd look back at me and greet me with a smile. At first, I was wondering if she was smiling at someone else, but no, it was me. And she was always being nice to me, which just confused the hell out of me. I didn't know what to think, maybe I was just imagining things. Like, what the hell would she like about me anyways? That I was a nice guy? Chyx that age don't like the nice guys! And I did look rather dorky. So I had to be imagining things.
Sophmore year we had Spanish together and that's when things got weird. As I've said before, we sat next to each other. Well, I sat in front of her, and I'd sit with my feet all the way back under my desk and she'd stretch her feet forward and we'd play footsie under our desks. Frickin' weird, right? I mean, it first started with an accidental touch, but she didn't recoil away. In fact, she'd playfully hooked her foot with mine. And then we'd do that every day in class for the next month or so. It was like our version of secret hand holding. But with feet.
I dunno what was going on between the two of us. I mean, she was cute and pretty cool, so its not like I wasn't attracted to her. If I had a class on the same floor/wing where her locker was, I'd swing by her locker even if it wasn't on the way and we'd talk about nothing. But I would never actually voice I was interested in her. I don't know why I couldn't, maybe it was a defense mechanism. I mean, why would I be willing to risk rejection with girls like Sara or Michelle, but when it came to someone who might actually like me that's when I chickened out? What the frick!? But I think she tired of me being an idiot, and her attitude kinda cooled towards me.
I think I had one last chance senior year and I blew it. After I had asked Gina to prom as a bet with Doc, I was talking about it with Daniel in the computer lab. And Becca was there. And the whole time talking about prom, she just kept on looking over at us and me, a little too interested in the conversation. Now Gina hadn't actually said yes yet, so I don't think it woulda been wrong to try and ask Becca. Or at least talk to her about prom and feel things out to see if it wouldn't be crazy to ask her to prom. But I was too chickenshit. I had nothing to lose by asking her and everything to gain! I am such a dumb-ass.
See, not one of those names in there were people's actual names!
And I still don't understand how one can forget to put their underwear on?! I mean, don't they notice things feel a little more light and breezy?!
Tuesday TV commentary:
The whole Nanny storyline continues to piss me off by being so prosaic. When they had her be hungover and her behavior was the result of being drunk, I thought for a second, okay, mebbe she just went a little too far with her crush on Nate and she's not that crazy. But then she made dinner and is starting to get all psycho, liking Jamie accidentally calling her mommy and trying to replace Haley.
Oh, and ha, when they said Mouth's boss was fired and "they were cleaning house", I figured they were going the route that she was sleeping with someone else. Or apparently everyone else, and they wouldn't realize he was one of those people. But ha, Millie being all offended that Mouth was banging his boss, and then Mouth making the joke about how he too would be offended if she was sleeping with Brooke's mom, but if she was sleeping with Brooke, he'd think it was totally awesome. Heh, you prolly don't want to make a joke like that if you're trying to win her heart!
Speaking of Brooke, hiding in bartender's car, naked? Isn't that a bit much? And then after inticing him, then she puts her clothes back on and leaves? WTF?!
And heh, Lucas only proposed to Lindsay because he found the engagement ring for Peyton and he thought it was the only way to stop her from leaving? As I've said countless times before, that relationship is doomed. Heh, I did find it amusing when Haley confronted Lucas about the kiss and he was all Lindsay will always be #2 because she's his #1? HA! I still find that whole thing weird, because their whole dynamic is they've been friends forever, which usually means they are the ones who'll end up together, but that was never even an issue. She has his brother, and he has every other girl on the show.
What, Julia wakes up, but she has amnesia, so she doesn't know Eden shot her. Or who anyone else is? But what did Eden tell her mom? Did she admit to shooting Julia and asked her to help cover it up?
And this weeks ep did a kinda 180. Now its Emmy who's really into the relationship, and Matt was actually kinda skeptical that they were really brother and sister so that's why he was continuing to pursue it? Why didn't he remark about his skepticism then rather than show her incest websites?! who played Emmy's mom? She looks very familiar. And it confuses me she was all can you fix my face to Christian. I mean, yeah she's old, but I thought she was still an attractive woman. What needed fixing?!
And was that ep that showed them 20 years in the future for real, or just a weird "what if?" scenario? If it was for real, then obviously Sean is gonna survive and be fine!
High school, it was amusing how I had no problem playing cupid for other people but if I had been doing the things I did for them for myself, I woulda been a nervous wreck. Like sneaking messages or gifts to girls they liked. I remember getting to History class early to sneak a plush bear and stupid poem Doc wrote for this girl Jeane. I played it cool when she asked if I saw who put it on her desk. Heh, the guy who sat in front of her also had a kinda thing for her, and was also trying to get it out of me. I think they still both suspected it was me, because he was giving me angry looks and she was looking at me smilingly the rest of class. Well, in my direction. She might've thought it was some other guy in the same line of sight. But I digress, since it wasn't actually me who had the crush on her, its no skin off my back if she figured out I was the one who slipped the stuff onto her seat, so I would be less nervous about the whole situation anyways.
But even when it was me, I still went for it. I really did ask Sara out. And Michelle (my biggest high school crush whom I sometimes refer to on here as actress girl), she figured out my long time crush on her when I accidentally ended up staring at her moonily (lame!) during Channel One and she caught me. That was near Valentine's Day, so I thought, might as well really let her now how I feel, so I sent her one of those flowergrams. The school sent them out during homeroom, and we had class together right after that and I figured I'd say something to her then after she got the flowers. But when she showed up, she was sans flowers, and we didn't talk for like a couple of weeks. I mean, we eventually talked again, but we both kinda pretended my crush on her didn't exist.
Yet, when confronted with a cute girl who I'm 95% sure liked me, I clammed up. Becca was that girl. I first met her freshman year English. I sat all the way in the back, she all the way in the front, but every day she'd look back at me and greet me with a smile. At first, I was wondering if she was smiling at someone else, but no, it was me. And she was always being nice to me, which just confused the hell out of me. I didn't know what to think, maybe I was just imagining things. Like, what the hell would she like about me anyways? That I was a nice guy? Chyx that age don't like the nice guys! And I did look rather dorky. So I had to be imagining things.
Sophmore year we had Spanish together and that's when things got weird. As I've said before, we sat next to each other. Well, I sat in front of her, and I'd sit with my feet all the way back under my desk and she'd stretch her feet forward and we'd play footsie under our desks. Frickin' weird, right? I mean, it first started with an accidental touch, but she didn't recoil away. In fact, she'd playfully hooked her foot with mine. And then we'd do that every day in class for the next month or so. It was like our version of secret hand holding. But with feet.
I dunno what was going on between the two of us. I mean, she was cute and pretty cool, so its not like I wasn't attracted to her. If I had a class on the same floor/wing where her locker was, I'd swing by her locker even if it wasn't on the way and we'd talk about nothing. But I would never actually voice I was interested in her. I don't know why I couldn't, maybe it was a defense mechanism. I mean, why would I be willing to risk rejection with girls like Sara or Michelle, but when it came to someone who might actually like me that's when I chickened out? What the frick!? But I think she tired of me being an idiot, and her attitude kinda cooled towards me.
I think I had one last chance senior year and I blew it. After I had asked Gina to prom as a bet with Doc, I was talking about it with Daniel in the computer lab. And Becca was there. And the whole time talking about prom, she just kept on looking over at us and me, a little too interested in the conversation. Now Gina hadn't actually said yes yet, so I don't think it woulda been wrong to try and ask Becca. Or at least talk to her about prom and feel things out to see if it wouldn't be crazy to ask her to prom. But I was too chickenshit. I had nothing to lose by asking her and everything to gain! I am such a dumb-ass.
See, not one of those names in there were people's actual names!
And I still don't understand how one can forget to put their underwear on?! I mean, don't they notice things feel a little more light and breezy?!
Tuesday TV commentary:
The whole Nanny storyline continues to piss me off by being so prosaic. When they had her be hungover and her behavior was the result of being drunk, I thought for a second, okay, mebbe she just went a little too far with her crush on Nate and she's not that crazy. But then she made dinner and is starting to get all psycho, liking Jamie accidentally calling her mommy and trying to replace Haley.
Oh, and ha, when they said Mouth's boss was fired and "they were cleaning house", I figured they were going the route that she was sleeping with someone else. Or apparently everyone else, and they wouldn't realize he was one of those people. But ha, Millie being all offended that Mouth was banging his boss, and then Mouth making the joke about how he too would be offended if she was sleeping with Brooke's mom, but if she was sleeping with Brooke, he'd think it was totally awesome. Heh, you prolly don't want to make a joke like that if you're trying to win her heart!
Speaking of Brooke, hiding in bartender's car, naked? Isn't that a bit much? And then after inticing him, then she puts her clothes back on and leaves? WTF?!
And heh, Lucas only proposed to Lindsay because he found the engagement ring for Peyton and he thought it was the only way to stop her from leaving? As I've said countless times before, that relationship is doomed. Heh, I did find it amusing when Haley confronted Lucas about the kiss and he was all Lindsay will always be #2 because she's his #1? HA! I still find that whole thing weird, because their whole dynamic is they've been friends forever, which usually means they are the ones who'll end up together, but that was never even an issue. She has his brother, and he has every other girl on the show.
What, Julia wakes up, but she has amnesia, so she doesn't know Eden shot her. Or who anyone else is? But what did Eden tell her mom? Did she admit to shooting Julia and asked her to help cover it up?
And this weeks ep did a kinda 180. Now its Emmy who's really into the relationship, and Matt was actually kinda skeptical that they were really brother and sister so that's why he was continuing to pursue it? Why didn't he remark about his skepticism then rather than show her incest websites?! who played Emmy's mom? She looks very familiar. And it confuses me she was all can you fix my face to Christian. I mean, yeah she's old, but I thought she was still an attractive woman. What needed fixing?!
And was that ep that showed them 20 years in the future for real, or just a weird "what if?" scenario? If it was for real, then obviously Sean is gonna survive and be fine!
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Date: 2008-02-20 10:12 pm (UTC)Lisa Darr was the mom (and I agree, total wmilf). I know her from Life as We Know it. She was Piz's friend who's in that MMA movie with the Amistad guy's mom. She's in tons of shows I know you watched, but I can't pick out something where you'd know her from.
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Date: 2008-02-20 10:54 pm (UTC)