meat and potatoes.
Apr. 17th, 2002 09:07 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
geebsHere's a real insightful post about me, for those people who are all, "This is just about what's on TV or food! What's up with that?!" (You know who you are):
I have zero confidence in anything. I mean, it won't stop me from doing things. I'm just skeptical that I did them right. I think is partly because I think any sort of confidence = hubris = pride comes before a fall. i.e., I'm screwed up because I think thinking good thoughts is cocky and will lead to a come-uppance. Which is ridiculous, but that's the way my mind operates. But I digress.
I guess another thing I hate is uncertainty. Which is prolly why I read spoilers for everything. I can't stand not knowing what's gonna happen. Sure, I can wait to see everything unfold, but my mind is too busy running through the possibilities to concentrate. That's why I want to know the general outcomes. So I don't have to worry and I can enjoy seeing things unfold. This prolly explains why I'm nervous about an interview that I've taken several times before and doesn't change, and why I can't wait for Monday to arrive. The uncertainty more than anything else. I mean, I obviously want things to turn out well, and theoretically, the chances in both are pretty good. But who knows what will happen between now and then? Or during? What about the monkey in the wrench? That's why I'd like to be in those sitches now. Good or bad, at least I'd know.
I have zero confidence in anything. I mean, it won't stop me from doing things. I'm just skeptical that I did them right. I think is partly because I think any sort of confidence = hubris = pride comes before a fall. i.e., I'm screwed up because I think thinking good thoughts is cocky and will lead to a come-uppance. Which is ridiculous, but that's the way my mind operates. But I digress.
I guess another thing I hate is uncertainty. Which is prolly why I read spoilers for everything. I can't stand not knowing what's gonna happen. Sure, I can wait to see everything unfold, but my mind is too busy running through the possibilities to concentrate. That's why I want to know the general outcomes. So I don't have to worry and I can enjoy seeing things unfold. This prolly explains why I'm nervous about an interview that I've taken several times before and doesn't change, and why I can't wait for Monday to arrive. The uncertainty more than anything else. I mean, I obviously want things to turn out well, and theoretically, the chances in both are pretty good. But who knows what will happen between now and then? Or during? What about the monkey in the wrench? That's why I'd like to be in those sitches now. Good or bad, at least I'd know.
