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I think I've come to understand why I like those movies like "About a Boy" or even "Big Daddy". You know, where you have some immature jerk coasting through life, and they meet some kid who forces them to care about someone else other than themselves. I think partly its because I see a little of myself in those characters. I know what you're thinking, a little? I am an immature jerk who needs to grow up. I just don't get as much action as they usually do. So seeing those movies gives me hope. That its possible for someone like me to make a change. Of course, I should concentrate on making the change instead of lolly-gagging and waiting for someone to inspire me to make such a change. I mean, the only time I really strive to better myself when there was someone who made me want to be a better man. But i should better myself for my own sake, not to impress someone else.

I guess the other reason I like it is because its a somewhat purer kind of love. To me, familial love is different than the love between a man and a woman. In the familial situation, there's definitely nothing in it for you, it seems like you genuinely love the person. I mean, true love is like that too, but it seems so easy to be faked, where people are in love but are actually in lust, that one or both just wants the sex. Or mebbe its just my issues with sex that make me think that way. I mean, I've always shallowly felt if you go out with a girl, and you got to sleep with her, you broke even. Even if you break up, it wasn't a waste of time. What kind of attitude is that? Its so bizzare. In one way, its saying sex is special because if you share that one special act with them, then you're time together wasn't wasted. But it also cheapens the whole damn thing, because in reality its that YOUR time wasn't wasted, that you at least you got your jollies out of the sitch. So to me, that's always in the back of my mind, that there's this selfish intent behind it that isn't present in familial love. Ida know, I'm just babbling, and I'm actually busy now.

busy

Busy morning today, and I'm stuck alone too! What I've done so far:

1) actual work!
2) unintentionally scared this petite hottie who seemed pissed at me for something totally beyond my control
3) get dlt shavings in my eye

What I need to do:

1) figure out this LDAP problem
2) write some of these how-tos

And I think I'm going blind. And senile.

hangover

So, what is the best thing for a hangover? I've always thought greasy food, and lots of it, seemed to work best, particularly greasy tater tots or hash browns. You know, have one of your non hung-over friends drive you to a place like the waffle house or zestos and just get the unhealthiest things on the menu? It seemed to curb any feelings of nausea.